disappointed and pissed.

Food:

less then a bag of popcorn low fat.
two slices of pizza.
8 Oz. V8 Fruitvusions.

Bed.

Fuck today.

On Ruby's sofa, drinking a smoothie her husband made for me! woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

Yummy guy at the gym. wasnt there tonight... Oh seemed to have forgot to mention the yummy guy huh? welllll oh my god he was YUMMY smexy brown curly hair, smexy silver rimmed glasses, smexy sun shoulder tattoo, smexy arms sexy sexy ass... mmmmmmm I so wanted to nom him.
Nom nom nom. I wants him. he was the perfect combo (looks wise) of Geeky Nerd/ Yummy I go to the gym and lift weight lots guy.

Now I don't know him personally so maybe personality wise I wouldn't like him but he was so sexy to watch. I would lose track of my reps watching him. he was a little thin for my taste, and a little short. I date taller guys just out of habit then again I'm 5 foot 2 its rare I find a man shorter then me. but thin? Id rather not go there I feel I will smoosh any man I date that weigh less then me.
So I'm hoping to lose some weight so I worry less (hopefully)

Today was not an official weigh in day for me Ive decided to do that officially on Sundays. But according to the scale this AM I am down one pound.

On news of my Puppy, I took her to the vet today, (she had double pneumonia when she was only 8 weeks old thanks to the puppy store we got her from) she is no longer sick but as she has been coughing we wanted to make sure she wasnt getting sick again. She is fine but she may have allergies, she is on a cough suppressant and an over the counter allergy medication (for humans very low dosage) she also has a 'yeast' infection in both of her ears, so now I have some special stuff to clean her ears out with.

I hope this link works >.<



anyway thats her! and thats it for me tonight

Food:

4 point frozen WW meal

two eggs
1 1/4 Fiber one pancakes
3 peices of sausage (full fat :( I know Im horrible)
1 serving Nutella on the pancakes

1 Large Caramel Latte Lite w/splenda (2 servings of splenda)

yayyy points ..... fuck veggies.... >.>

DDR

9.809 Cal.
1/2 Mile.

My Legs hurt, too much jumping, Tomorrow 1 Mile.

Time left on my 30 min work out timer, 19 Min.

but Im sweating so I need a moment and my calfs are killing me.
time for a drink maybe more in a bit..

Gym tonight. Tired. Not going on my date Friday, I refuse to be rebound.
Planning on meeting up with someone else some time this week. Ill see how that goes.
Hope for a Job soon.
Gym again tomorrow.

Food choices today? horrible, I cannot go to any more fast food or restaurants.
thats it those are triggers for me, so please as my friend Molly no more asking to go to said places when we go out, because if we do I cant eat. I just cant.

Tonight I passed by the Duncan Doughnuts even though I really really really wanted the Caramel Iced Latte lite.

I passed by the McDonalds even though I wanted some chicken nuggets.

I was going to eat some veggies when I got home but as I got yelled at walking in the door cause I woke my parents up I had to cook something less noisy. so a Nutella Sammich and 8 Oz. of V8 Fruitvusions for me one serving of Veggies and Fruits till tomorrow when I can get the Veggies in I want.

though Im sure maybe one day Ill be able to eat the Veggies I want without ranch dressing on them. though I doubt Ill ever be able to eat peas... ick.

no weight lost.
none gained.

what am I doing wrong....

*sighs*

1 glass of milk
2 slices of honey wheat bread
less then 1 serving of Nutella
Edamame well over one serving but really I dont think Soy beans are bad for you.

then a Party tonight with Molly, I will keep to portion sizes, and eat slowly.

Ive realized that the only reason I have stuck to portion sizes are because of Ruby and Molly. and if It wasnt for Ruby letting me stay at her house (other then sleeping I go home to do that) my points would be screwed.